Yesterday was once terrible nite for me..
My father was scared me wif his hands numbness n stiffness..
At first, he didnt show any serious symptoms..
He complaint of dizziness n body 麻痹 from the afternoon..Thus, he rested on the lazy chair thinking that little rest would help..
However, the dizziness never faded and bcame worsen..
After the dinner, i drove him to c our family doc (Dr. Doshi) but unfortunately, he was out..
My father wanna go bc home since the clinic hasn't opened but d house keys were not wif us..
While waiting for my mother to cum bc, my father suddenly getting worse..
He was very emotional n his hands were very stiff due to 麻痹(or 抽筋?)..
I rushed him to the clinic nearby..Dat time i was very worried and dunno wat to do..plus there were only my father n I on the car..i almost wanna cry out..
The doc refused to c him due to praying at first but thn, he managed to come out to our car to c my father..The doc asked us to go to hospital as he cannot determine watz wrong wif my father due to lack of equipments..
Thn, my father asked me to get my mother to bring him to the Doshi's house..
Whn i reached home, i was cried..I was very useless dat time..
I chose to cried at home but not follow my parents..i was escaped from problem n bcum so irresponsible..
I nvr feel so lost in my life n this is 1st time i was like dis..
I dunno wat happened to my father n was thinking of many possibilities of illness happened to him..
I felt that I m still immatured to face the problems in life..Crying is not a solution but an escape..
And yes, i was cried for almost 1 hour to get myself to calm down..(Feeling that i m very 小女人which is very helpless whn facing problems)
At dat time, i wish there is sum1 beside me to guide me to get along wif my father's problem..
and of course, my wishes didnt realise in real world..
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Today, my father is getting better but still, the problem hasnt gone..
My cousin brought my father n I to c the doc in awana kijal which is claimed to b excellent doc by my cousin..
Fortunately, there was no ppl during that time..
Without waiting, three of us went into the doc's room..
According to the doc, my father dizziness was caused by the ear's infection..
thn, he also answered my unsolved question..(I was scared my father was suffering from stroke but the doc said all the symtoms that my father suffered werent directed to stroke)
I felt relieved that time but still worried..
Realising the golden age that my father has, I begin to reconsider my job location..
act, i wish to base in kmn so that my home wont hav only 2 old ppl all the time..
However, there was no job suitable for me n my arrogant in kmn..
Wat i think is that, i dun wan to involve myself in education, sales as well as those need to talk so much cos my communication skill was very poor n i dun like to face wif certain categories of ppl..
However, other profesional fields werent my expertise..
Thus, i was in dilemma for my future..Down in fact..
